exactly- I HAVE NO CLOSURE. It drives me crazy. Almost to obsessive status. the cool thing is I am dating someone very cool that communicates with me without going into a tail spin or shuts down when I ask a question or talk to them about something that needs to be talked about that is not surfacy or something they might not be interested in. I tried really really hard to understand him to the point of going beyond the call to no avail, and this even made him scared of me. Confrontation and/or talking about feelings was not something he wanted to do, and in realtionships, as we all know, things can come up that do not necessarily feel right that you need to talk about. I really cared about this person a lot, and I tried really hard to let them know that, but it backfired royally. I still do not understand what the deal was/is or anything, and I usually can figure shit out- I think that is why it was making me crazy. Not to sound like I am being negative, but I have had A LOT of consequences from my breakup,( lost friends, got talked about behind my back) and I am not sure why. Never had this before. None of my friends get it since I have never really had communication problems beore, or have been talked about in the mannner of which I have the last few months- especially from people who have NEVER seen us together really to see the dynamics, and have never asked me anything about myself, or tried to get to know me one iota. I cannot help it that I see things very clearly through non verbal communication that exacerbates me needing to communicate verbally. I suppose this style is not for everyone <shrug>

Yes- I am in Los Altos hills now. The dogs and I live in teh wilderness. We like it- it is a little far, but we make do. I needed some time off, and some peace and quiet. We are definitely getting that. We have subrterranean wildlife that my dogs drool over every day. it is cool. get in touch when you are in the area, and I am glad you found a normal guy!